Recently, I’ve found myself feeling lost and confused as to where I am and where I’m headed education and career wise. Being stuck in a rut is an annoying phase of a chapter in life and you can feel as if you’re never going to overcome it.

If you’re reading this post and expecting me to tell you I’ve overcome this phase and I’m doing just fine… I’m going to be real with you. I’m still stuck. I’m writing this from a place of confusion and self-doubt. I’m doubting my choices at university, my choices within the fashion industry as a whole. Did I make the wrong decision? Or am I just going down the wrong path of the industry which isn’t for me? I wish I knew.

Let me just quickly interject and say; This post may be jittery and all over the place but I guess that is just a metaphor for how I’m actually feeling right now! Sorry to disappoint. 

Anyways, I will start off with the issue of university. Now I am in no way slating the university I’m studying at, nor am I saying it’s been a hugely positive experience for me. I’m kind of in the middle. For me, having to decide where I wanted my career to begin and choosing a university degree to study on was a very difficult decision. I’ve never excelled in anything or known exactly what it is I want to pursue. (I’ve only very recently re-discovered my passion for writing, hence the start of this blog!) And in all honesty, here in the UK the primary age to start university is typically 18. To me, that’s a really young age to plan out the rest of your life! You’ve just come off the back-end of constant exams and studying. You’re young, confused and just finding yourself and you are expected to make this huge decision that could potentially set you up for life.

As of recently, and a few moments in the past, I’ve begun to think the decision I made to pursue a career in the fashion industry was the wrong choice for me. In all honesty, I chose the design course because it’s what I did best in school and I just thought I could stick it out. Have you heard of the saying ‘fake it till you make it?’ Well, 2 years into my degree I’ve stuck by that saying and I’m afraid the faking part is running thin. I’ve run out of the ‘passion for fashion’.

I see my peers at university genuinely engaged in the lectures and seminars and I constantly sit there thinking, I don’t belong here, why am I here? Mentally and physically it’s been draining and these past two months of this 2nd year 2nd term my patience has run low. The course itself isn’t helping either, if someone was to honestly ask me what I’ve learnt so far at university? You’d laugh because I’ve basically just thrown £13.5k down the drain for things that could’ve been self-taught on YouTube. All in all, I’m at the brink of letting the degree go and re-thinking my entire career choice.

Now some of you reading this may not be in education altogether, however, that doesn’t mean you’re not feeling lost and low on motivation. Something I’ve found to help me from wallowing in self-pity, is to keep productive. Do something, anything. For example, you may not want to focus on the work you have to do but you really enjoy reading. So take some time to do what you enjoy, maybe all you need is a break, a well needed rest away from your everyday routine. What I find is, sometimes I do the same thing day in day out that I get fed up of doing and seeing the same things, taking yourself out of those familiar surroundings can be a good refresher. Taking time to refocus is never a bad idea. Another thing is to give yourself something to look forward to, an evening with your friends at the end of the week, a mini getaway at the end of the month perhaps. Little rewards can keep you motivated to finish what you need to do so you can enjoy the happier moments in life! (Took my own advice here and booked myself a short trip to Venice at the end of this week! Blog post to follow). 

Looking past all the negativity I’ve been spewing across this post, one positive aspect of being stuck in a rut is finding something I truly enjoy doing, writing! As a distraction and a new-found hobby I decided to start-up this blog which I find myself taking pride in whenever I get good feedback or I need to escape the workload from university. If I was to let the degree go, I would very much like to throw myself into this blogging thing and see where it takes me. Blogging to me means more outings, more adventures, more food, more shopping and many more MOMENTS to share with all of you!

I’m going to end this post here, because I could continue for thousands more words but I wouldn’t want to bore you to death. However, I’d just like to thank each and every one of you who has taken the time to read a blog post of mine, sent me private feedback or even told someone else about my blog. I will continue to work on this good aspect within my life.

And finally, I’d also like to give a quick mention to a YouTube video I recently watched by Estee Lalonde about being stuck in a rut which really helped me process my thoughts, you can give it a watch here!

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Thank you.

Posted by:Sharmin Afsana

I'm a 21 y/o Fashion Design student, born and raised in London. I'm full of wanderlust and like all things food, makeup and fashion related. Here are just a few moments of my life.

13 replies on “Stuck in a Rut

  1. Great post! I know the feeling when I was in college changing my degree’s. You have nothing but time to figure things out. Don’t worry if it takes you longer than your friends or surrounding peers. I know its easier said than done. I too find it bizarre that ‘society’ makes it seem as though you need to know what you want to do and how you’re going to get there after graduating kindergarten lol. I find reading, writing, and making new memories help with a sense of direction. Keep striving for greatness!

    1. Thank you so much for the kind words! It does make things easier knowing others have been where you are or are currently in a similar situation. I think I will just focus on writing for now and see how everything pans out!

  2. I really love the honesty of this post. I feel like social media is always full of images of clean-cut perfection, but I definitely agree that blogging is such a good outlet and this post is the perfect example.
    I feel like at our age we’re definitely all in similar situations, and there’s so much pressure to have clear direction and it’s just not possible.
    Keep going with what you love <3

    1. Thank you SO much for this comment, it really means a lot. It takes a while for us all to figure out what is we want to do but it’s never too late to find something you’re passionate about! x

  3. I have a lot of respect for you, firstly for being honest and second for not being afraid to express how you feel. I know that feeling that you feel. It’s okay though to make mistakes. You’re not wrong for how you feel. Sometimes we get lost just to find ourselves again. I hope that you will find something that you really love. College didn’t go as planned for me either and that put me in a deep depression. But everything happens for a reason. Keep your beautiful head up❤️

    1. Thank you so much! This comment means more to me than you’d think. I hope you’re doing okay too, this is why I love the blogging community. SO supportive ❤️❤️

  4. This is very honest and real and a feeling many people can relate to I think. Thanks for sharing. I am a Creative Life Coach offering Life Coaching and Creative Project Coaching experiences and have a poetry blog here on WordPress in case you have time to look? Have also included the link to my coaching website in case you are interested in seeing this too and do feel free to share with others as many of my sessions are held online via Skype, Facetime or Zoom.

    Sunny greetings from Switzerland,
    Sam 🙂
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    1. Thank you so much for taking the time to read and comment! I will for sure be checking your blog out! 🙂

  5. Thank you for been vulnerable here. It’s healing.

    You can check out my post that relates to this via emmanuellove356165818.wordpress.com/2018/06/25/how-to-move-forward-with-no-motivation/

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